Theater. Theatre.

I LOVE theater.

I have all my life. Its been a major part of who I am since I was young. And right there came my problem. Theater became who i was, what I identified myself with instead of identifying myself with Jesus Christ. I was in 4 plays a year for a really long time! And then God told me to take a break after my sophomore year of high school. And so I did.

Now, TWO YEARS later, He has given me permission to audition for a play. Last week, I auditioned for Bard in the Quad with Oregon State University. The play this year is As You Like It, by William Shakespeare.

I was so nervous.

But, it ended up being great! I auditioned on Thursday and had the time of my life! Honestly, I didn't realize how much I missed it! Do you ever just really really want coffee? however, you know you need to drink water, and don't want to spend the time and the money on it so you just keep putting it off and off and not getting coffee. However, you keep thinking about it. You smell it and just really want it. And then when you finally give in and drink coffee, its SO satisfying. That is how theater is for me. Its my coffee. It energizes me, it excites me, and it filled that desire I had.
Now I don't know if I got in yet, and honestly its not that big of a deal if I do! (I might be a little sad, but I would understand). However, it was just so fun that God gave me permission to be in a show again! That He trusts me to hold His Glory while fulfilling my passions.
I find out sometime this week if I was cast. And I keep checking the website and my email to see.

I really want to know.

...Visions on Canvas...

Sunday Night I was at the Westfalls house for YAF (young adults fellowship), and we were just worshiping and basking in the love of the Lord. All those who were attending had just returned from Shasta the previous weekend where God did a mighty work and showed His power. The weekend brought forth confession and healing in the name of the Lord! And we have all just been praising Him since it!
A major theme in the Real Life crew these days has just been enjoying the love of the Lord! So as we sat there worshiping, I was just praying that God would reveal His love to me and show me his power. One person who was there began to read out a verse:

"Love suffers long [and] is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails." 1 Corintians 13: 4-8a

With this verse, God gave me a picture of the power of His word and the Love that comes from it! I saw a picture of a canvas, and on the left side of the canvas was the silhouette of a face blowing ( i googled the image and found something close to what I saw)

Coming out of the mouth was scripture. The scripture looked whimsical as if it were wind being breathed out of the mouth of this person. At first i thought the "person" was God and prayed about that and felt as if it was us, the body, lovers of Jesus. I kept praying about this picture, asking if there was more too it and what it meant. And then I saw a picture of the wind/scripture flowing over the mountains, then the wind encompassed a city and then the wind blew a small dandelion.

I could see this picture so clearly it was almost as if I were on the wind, following the course of the scripture. I continued to pray about it hoping that God would give me an interpretation of what it meant and I feel as if I have a small idea. I felt as if the scripture was represented as wind because it is there without even seeing it. And the wind can be powerful doing lots of damage, or it can just be an enjoyable light breeze. God's love is powerful but also incredibly enjoyable. Also, i felt as if God was saying that His word can touch something as big as a mountain to something as small as a dandelion. I was talking about it to my parents and my dad felt as if the dandelion also represented multiplication.
To me this picture also shows the power of knowing the word. When we know the word, His love just pours through us. The better we know the scripture, the God Breathed truth, the easier it is to be like minded with Christ. The easier it is to have to heart of the Lord. The easier it is to LOVE people the way GOD loves people.